I'm with you man. I've experienced a lot of crap and it just tore me apart. There are times though... when I feel like it was all a necessary part of my life to help build me up. I don't believe in God or anything of the sort but I do believe in fate and I feel that we're all born with our lives predetermined. It seems terrible but it's not and you can't fight it because whatever choices you make are the choices that were meant to happen anyways. Still... everything happens for a reason and I believe myself to be better for what I've experienced but yeah... I'm also pretty flawed because of it. Life isn't perfect, you know?
What a different side of you. With all the strength you possess it's amazing that you still don't see how angry you get at perfectly good people who have not wronged you. Take what you have learned from your hardships and be a better person. Continue to think like this, and not snap and the slightest provoking.
You may wonder why I'm saying this, and yes I'm sure you have a myriad of witty mean things to say, but my best friend was an arrogant and angry person but he was my friend because he was so creative, and we bonded with music and art. He made many people's lives hell in high school and of course over the internet like on facebook. He wasn't aware of it, and he pushed everyone away from him. However, once he felt he had no friends he killed himself. Obviously I blamed myself because I was supposed to be his best friend, and I did all I could, but he pushed himself over the edge. I always said I wish I could've done more. Been more frank with him. I tried to just be cool and not provoke him, but that wasn't the way to go obviously.It's been a long time since he died, but I still feel regret.
I'm sure you've heard about all the bullying suicides recently and I just wanted to point out what online bullying can do to people. You may say "well the weak should stay off of the internet", well that's just not the way it works. In our society, we tend to value safety and promote brotherhood. People who have done nothing wrong should not be subjected to such hatred.
I see you have emotions and you are a human being, therefore I write this to you in order to reach out. A friendly gesture. I have nothing mean or bad to say to you. I hope you will take this to heart, and try to be a litter nicer. I see you are capable.
Also remember, the intelligent do not need to stoop to insults to get their point across.
