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So yesterday at church, my best friend walked in and she sat next to this very fit and large man, he looked a little on the edge, so naturally since I didn't know him, I looked over to check on her occasionally, plus with her bieng hawt and me bieng male I did so... Anyway, I get up to get coffee, he taps me o nthe shoulder, I take my iPod off, he looks at me intensely while she half-smirks half-looks away in either embarrassment or laughter. He says too me "You got a staring problem?" Now him being a intense looking strong looking man and me bieng an average kid that looks 4 years younger than him and hates violence, I was nervous, I say "No" not thinking of any better rebutle (I did later though) I go and sit down, I text her and (Stupid desicion on my part) say to her "Nice pimp you got there, paranoid AND ****ed up" (Keep that text in mind) she texts back and lets me know... He is her brother
and there was once a rumor going around that I was stalking my said best friend, and it appears that not only is he going to come to church, the only place I see the majority of my friends, but he is gonna hover over her probably, anyway... I got into a little text arguement trying to explain (Yet again) that just hanging out and following right behind her sometimes (I don't anymore) isn't stalking. Of course though, she is mentally incapable of believing the true deffinition of things and only believes what the street says...
After a little tissy fit, I stopped texting her to calm down, 4 hours later I say something along the lines of "I am sorry for bieng a jerk earlier, and I never ever meant to stalk you, we cool?" To which she replies that I would have to talk to her brother, I say that I don't care about him and said that I only care about us, are WE cool? She says (Prepare for the low blow, the refs aren't looking) "I don't know, after you practically called me a whore when you called him my pimp." (Didn't you just see that one coming? Damn I am stupid when I am around her!) So we got in a little fight around that... Then hoping I would either win her over or lose her forever, I said these exact words: "If you don't like me or can't forgive me for ****ing up sometimes, just say it. Say you hate me, break my life in 2. If you still like me then torture me no more. Please, forgive me." That first bit is deffinately true, I never told her how much I needed her because I knew she would push me away cause of it, truth is she is the primary thing holding me together, I have back up strings, but she is the rope. Anyway, ****ed up situation, ****ed up results, got any ****ed up help?
So yesterday at church, my best friend walked in and she sat next to this very fit and large man, he looked a little on the edge, so naturally since I didn't know him, I looked over to check on her occasionally, plus with her bieng hawt and me bieng male I did so... Anyway, I get up to get coffee, he taps me o nthe shoulder, I take my iPod off, he looks at me intensely while she half-smirks half-looks away in either embarrassment or laughter. He says too me "You got a staring problem?" Now him being a intense looking strong looking man and me bieng an average kid that looks 4 years younger than him and hates violence, I was nervous, I say "No" not thinking of any better rebutle (I did later though) I go and sit down, I text her and (Stupid desicion on my part) say to her "Nice pimp you got there, paranoid AND ****ed up" (Keep that text in mind) she texts back and lets me know... He is her brother
and there was once a rumor going around that I was stalking my said best friend, and it appears that not only is he going to come to church, the only place I see the majority of my friends, but he is gonna hover over her probably, anyway... I got into a little text arguement trying to explain (Yet again) that just hanging out and following right behind her sometimes (I don't anymore) isn't stalking. Of course though, she is mentally incapable of believing the true deffinition of things and only believes what the street says... After a little tissy fit, I stopped texting her to calm down, 4 hours later I say something along the lines of "I am sorry for bieng a jerk earlier, and I never ever meant to stalk you, we cool?" To which she replies that I would have to talk to her brother, I say that I don't care about him and said that I only care about us, are WE cool? She says (Prepare for the low blow, the refs aren't looking) "I don't know, after you practically called me a whore when you called him my pimp." (Didn't you just see that one coming? Damn I am stupid when I am around her!) So we got in a little fight around that... Then hoping I would either win her over or lose her forever, I said these exact words: "If you don't like me or can't forgive me for ****ing up sometimes, just say it. Say you hate me, break my life in 2. If you still like me then torture me no more. Please, forgive me." That first bit is deffinately true, I never told her how much I needed her because I knew she would push me away cause of it, truth is she is the primary thing holding me together, I have back up strings, but she is the rope. Anyway, ****ed up situation, ****ed up results, got any ****ed up help?
