normally never would i say it...
sooo... normally it takes a lot for me to get down, but i got a lot built up so i'm gonna put it up in the off chance that any of you care.
wednesday was supposed to be a good day. my best friend from high school was coming down. my day plan was simple and easy to make succeed as a good day... i could never have anticipated how wrong i was.
the day was good until after i picked him up from the airport and we rode the train back. the first thing to go wrong was this: my friend has a gf who apparently he's ignoring. i was friends to both of them when he met her, so because she's being ignored, of course she calls me and asks if he's even still interested, if she's waisting her time crap like that. i try to be a friend to both of them so i said i'd bring it up when we hung out later that night to see what he says. you know, consult with both and try to reach mutual understanding: blah blah blah.
it may sound like i go out of my way to solve problems, but in reality i just don't realize early enough any approaching conflict. the trouble finds me.
the next thing that happened...my new gf since new years, recent i know (and a coworker) had been trying to reach me all day. her literal text was "we need to talk". that set off a red flag, because it can never be good when phrased that way. she came over and said that people at work were practically interrogating her that day about whether we were dating. for the sake of out jobs "we can still be friends"...it's just if we got found out, i would get fired and she would stop being trained to work projection...basically get my job.
it wasn't even the manager who did it. the other projectionist is an @$$ hole who takes it upon himself to snitch on everything he can. he's stabbed everyone working there in the back in some way (myself included prior to all this).
by this point i was pretty upset. i wanted to introduce this great girl i'd found to one of my oldest friend and i got broken up with while he was watching. nobody's perfect, i'm no different, i wanted some brew so i could forget. my connection who sells out of his closet told me he was sold out but i knew he did. i was unable to put myself in a state where i don't have to think about it all. i find that even more depressing than if i had found some.
i was supposed to go to *ignorant boyfriend*'s place that night, but he was at band practice for a lot of the night. he ended up blowing me off when it was over... after i spent 20 minutes listening to what HIS girlfriend has to say which he obviously hasn't since they met.
the final straw was when he only replied back during band practice and added that apparently some kid is really ****ed at me for something i did a couple days ago. it wasn't a big deal and no trouble came of it, but it was kind of a dick move.
normally, i really frown on using this term...but i think it's warranted by the situation.
fml.
:noexpression:
sooo... normally it takes a lot for me to get down, but i got a lot built up so i'm gonna put it up in the off chance that any of you care.
wednesday was supposed to be a good day. my best friend from high school was coming down. my day plan was simple and easy to make succeed as a good day... i could never have anticipated how wrong i was.
the day was good until after i picked him up from the airport and we rode the train back. the first thing to go wrong was this: my friend has a gf who apparently he's ignoring. i was friends to both of them when he met her, so because she's being ignored, of course she calls me and asks if he's even still interested, if she's waisting her time crap like that. i try to be a friend to both of them so i said i'd bring it up when we hung out later that night to see what he says. you know, consult with both and try to reach mutual understanding: blah blah blah.
it may sound like i go out of my way to solve problems, but in reality i just don't realize early enough any approaching conflict. the trouble finds me.
the next thing that happened...my new gf since new years, recent i know (and a coworker) had been trying to reach me all day. her literal text was "we need to talk". that set off a red flag, because it can never be good when phrased that way. she came over and said that people at work were practically interrogating her that day about whether we were dating. for the sake of out jobs "we can still be friends"...it's just if we got found out, i would get fired and she would stop being trained to work projection...basically get my job.
it wasn't even the manager who did it. the other projectionist is an @$$ hole who takes it upon himself to snitch on everything he can. he's stabbed everyone working there in the back in some way (myself included prior to all this).
by this point i was pretty upset. i wanted to introduce this great girl i'd found to one of my oldest friend and i got broken up with while he was watching. nobody's perfect, i'm no different, i wanted some brew so i could forget. my connection who sells out of his closet told me he was sold out but i knew he did. i was unable to put myself in a state where i don't have to think about it all. i find that even more depressing than if i had found some.
i was supposed to go to *ignorant boyfriend*'s place that night, but he was at band practice for a lot of the night. he ended up blowing me off when it was over... after i spent 20 minutes listening to what HIS girlfriend has to say which he obviously hasn't since they met.
the final straw was when he only replied back during band practice and added that apparently some kid is really ****ed at me for something i did a couple days ago. it wasn't a big deal and no trouble came of it, but it was kind of a dick move.
normally, i really frown on using this term...but i think it's warranted by the situation.
fml.
:noexpression:
