I've been telling myself I should see a therapist or a counselor. I'm glad there's a free one on-line! ...haha...it isn't self control if you don't know what you're stopping. that's the fear to go out on a limb. if you regret where you are, the problem is that you aren't determined. i can't send what you need over PayPal, but i can say that telling yourself encouraging words, just being friendly and open to people overall. you've grown accustomed to telling yourself that if you go out on a limb you're gonna fall - which isn't just unhealthy, it's just plain wrong. just commit yourself to what you want and it's all in the past. literally everything you're taking issue with not having done could be fit into about an hour if you played your cards right.
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fair enough. i've been procrastinating like it's nobodies business anyway. :lol:
I know you're right, and I just wish I could flip a switch...but I honestly don't care to I guess...I don't know. I'm messed up. :/
Procrastinations isn't anyone's business...so I think you're all set