Tiamatria
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What are friends for?
I'm seriously ****ed right now - my friend of 7 years has started being a jackass since the 4th of July of this year, because he's been hanging out with some total assholes.
So today, I had him and my other friend stay the night, and we were playing Halo 3 from about 7 pm till just now - 8:45 am.
Until a few hours ago, because I was winning and they killed me, they started making fun of me. Not the normal teasing either - the monotone "he's a douchebag, he got pwned. "something we can finally agree on" crap. And then they start insulting my personal problems with anxiety and depression - I had an anxiety attack an hour ago after my mom screamed at me because she couldn't get the bathroom door open and threatened me with illegible words after that - I think something about throwing a screwdriver at me and on top of my "friends" deliberately making fun of me.
So after I nearly got killed by a screwdriver, my douche friend started saying that depression doesn't exist and you just need to suck it up. This REALLY ****ed me off because he's got such a fan-***king-tastic life that he can't seem to vacate his delusions of grandeur and realize that he needs to stop being an ass after I've asked him millions of times to stop making fun of me because I'm gay and because of my depression. They were making stupid comments too - like, "I only shot him with a rocket because he's gay" and worse things which I will not mention.
Although I know I shouldn't be friends with him if he makes me feel like ****, it's the fact that we've known eachother for so long. It still REALLY gets on my nerves when he calls me asking for game cheats, and nothing else, which he's been doing repeatedly.
I just had to get this off of my chest, because I was about to punch another hole in my wall. What do you guys think? Am I totally in the wrong like they say and I've done everything wrong, or do I have a bit of a right to be livid?
I'm seriously contemplating why i even have friends. I looked at my Astrology book today - my Sun sign is Aquarius, my Moon sign is Scorpio, and my Ascendant is Capricorn, with my Aquarius cusp also being on Capricorn, and most of them say that I'm perfectly content in the company of others or alone.
Tl;dr version: Friends are being total assholes, making fun of my problems after my mother nearly threw a screwdriver at my face.
Longest thread ever? Anyhow, feel free to post anything, really... I would like some feedback but I know this thread will likely get derailed.
I'm seriously ****ed right now - my friend of 7 years has started being a jackass since the 4th of July of this year, because he's been hanging out with some total assholes.
So today, I had him and my other friend stay the night, and we were playing Halo 3 from about 7 pm till just now - 8:45 am.
Until a few hours ago, because I was winning and they killed me, they started making fun of me. Not the normal teasing either - the monotone "he's a douchebag, he got pwned. "something we can finally agree on" crap. And then they start insulting my personal problems with anxiety and depression - I had an anxiety attack an hour ago after my mom screamed at me because she couldn't get the bathroom door open and threatened me with illegible words after that - I think something about throwing a screwdriver at me and on top of my "friends" deliberately making fun of me.
So after I nearly got killed by a screwdriver, my douche friend started saying that depression doesn't exist and you just need to suck it up. This REALLY ****ed me off because he's got such a fan-***king-tastic life that he can't seem to vacate his delusions of grandeur and realize that he needs to stop being an ass after I've asked him millions of times to stop making fun of me because I'm gay and because of my depression. They were making stupid comments too - like, "I only shot him with a rocket because he's gay" and worse things which I will not mention.
Although I know I shouldn't be friends with him if he makes me feel like ****, it's the fact that we've known eachother for so long. It still REALLY gets on my nerves when he calls me asking for game cheats, and nothing else, which he's been doing repeatedly.
I just had to get this off of my chest, because I was about to punch another hole in my wall. What do you guys think? Am I totally in the wrong like they say and I've done everything wrong, or do I have a bit of a right to be livid?
I'm seriously contemplating why i even have friends. I looked at my Astrology book today - my Sun sign is Aquarius, my Moon sign is Scorpio, and my Ascendant is Capricorn, with my Aquarius cusp also being on Capricorn, and most of them say that I'm perfectly content in the company of others or alone.
Tl;dr version: Friends are being total assholes, making fun of my problems after my mother nearly threw a screwdriver at my face.
Longest thread ever? Anyhow, feel free to post anything, really... I would like some feedback but I know this thread will likely get derailed.